Thursday, April 28, 2011
***Very important notes to self herein****
7:30pm class
I used a #15 bar
300 single jumps
20 power snatch
20 pullups
225 single jumps
15 power snatch
15 pullups
150 single jumps
10 power snatch
10 pullups
I have had a great few weeks of super challenging life situations but something BIG has changed. Ever since my recent illness and subsequent and ongoing cure/treatment, I really feel like someone tapped me on the back and said “PSST. Try these glasses. You’ve been walking around your whole life without them.” Somehow, in some way, my entire universe got a recalibration when things seemed, almost, to be spinning around me as my life got picked up by a wizard of oz style tornado and thrown into chaos. I used an endless thread of positive thoughts and rational fact-based living, some days hour by hour since my husband was also very ill at the same time that helped me realize that most of the STUFF that had been driving me nuts, from the grand to the really unsublime, really only matter if I want them to. And I really don’t want them to. I have a life to live. And a beautiful daughter to raise….who’s about to turn ONE ...how did THAT go by so fast and so intensely??.And things I really really want to accomplish and make actionable plans to do those things. With the complete knowledge that at any time, everything can change so if I can’t laugh about it all, I should really get a clue.
And most STUFF with my new glasses, really doesn’t matter to me anymore….
I no longer, seemingly within weeks, no longer spend time thinking about or focusing attention on:
-other people’s opinions of me and their subsequent own behaviors
-gossip and infoglut (endless/undefined “connected/online” time spent without a goal and replacing valuable opportunities to spend time working towards a measurable SOMETHING, especially challenging given my profession
-any sense of SHOULD ...gone
-the notion that perfection is achievable or even desirable - “Perfection has an amazing marketing team.” - Fader
-anything i deem unworthy of my time, which is a finite currency (Conversely, I need to ensure I’m keeping up my end of the bargain by respecting each being’s own value of their time.)
I am finding the return to discipline (high work intensity in my career, return to regular CFLA classes, planning and managing my time so there’s also time for me to be a mom and a wife and carving out non-negotiable time for just me) very FREE-ing. which doesn’t make much sense, but I’m just sharing guys. Planning is just a big illusion of control anyway, so I figure as long as I keep responding well to whatever is in my path, I’m good. Anyone?? Bueller?? Bueller???
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